Akrostik #4



Enigmatic is a word too often used by people trying to sound edgy, so I’d
Rather not use it to put image to myself; for I am not a mystery, but
Neither are my intentions clear as a pristine sea. I’m
Earnest—as the name implies—but filled with apathy, my
Sincerity is insincere and my minds are full of triviality, and
Thoughts that I myself fear deeply,


(but know me a bit and you might just see the)


Dad jokes as a testament to my self-claimed joviality, and the
Impulsivity that is my undoing—oh, how I need a remedy,
Or maybe you’ll find out how music fascinate me, or how nostalgic I can be, or how I sometimes despise my identity, or how the things that bemused you are the things that amuse me; but for
Now I just want to end this piece of poetry... rather nicely.



8 February 2019; A class assignment. The first of its kind,

-@theredtension-

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